Never really occurred to me that dance could be my occupation. I always enjoyed it. It was my hobby for years. But I never took it seriously. This year I have realised that its a very inseparable part of my life.
I am doing a regular masters in Bharat Natyam. At the onset I wasn’t willing to take it up. I just wanted to learn something new. But at my Guruji’s insistence I enrolled for this course. Life became unexpectdly hectic. I had morning lessons followed by another class in psychology and then again dance rehearsals. To be honest I’m enjoying this. The adreline rush, the spirit of dance, the momentum.
I performed at various prestigious occasions. Its been a fabulous year. I’ve never danced as much ever. Its only now that I realise what dance means to me. Its not only my passion, its become my way of life.
My guruji has not only taught me how to dance; she has taught me how to live my life. Dance has become my philosophy, my spirit. I’ve been able to understand myself better.
Till just a few days ago, I would just freeze on stage. Not that I stopped dancing or forgot anything but I would get unnecessarily soo nervous that I wouldnt do my steps confidently. I wasnt enjoying my performance. So I analysed through all this and realised that I was losing confidence in everything I was doing … though I could not understand the source of this.
Later as I performed for the latest show, suddenly I was me again. I was enjoying every movement. I was appearing confident and graceful. It was one of those “aha” moments.
There is definitely a spillover of all this on my non-dancing life. I completed my psychology journal in just 3 days n I also joined a theatre workshop. Dance has breathed a new lease of life. My relationships with my people have grown stronger. I become more focussed. Just as when we are tired while dancing but the performance has to go on; I have learned to endure n to rise above difficulties and pain. I have learned to get under the skin of the characters, understand their motives, their way of expression. I have learned to express myself better and most importantly I have learned to evolve into being a better human being. Indeed, dance has become my way of life.
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